**my lil bumblebee**

ladies and gentlemen!!

allow me to introduce you to the one & only bumblebee in da house.... (drum rolls*****)

HAZIQ AZIZI!!!

kisahnya, si kemetot sorang ni wants mama to write about him. mana aci kan, mama citer pasal abang je.. 'where's my picture? where's my picture?'. when i showed him the previous pictures in my previous posts, he says.. 'no...! i want a lot lot picture...'

so this post is dedicated to my one and only baby haziq! he's not a baby anymore but i still call him 'mama's baby' coz he's so manja, cheeky & clingy..

haziq, masa dia betul2 baby..

ok, let's recap about HAZIQ............

al-kisah.. back in 2005, the date was 11th july, haziq was born at Pantai Hospital Ayer Keroh melaka at 11.52pm. weighing 4.05kg, i safely delivered him the normal way after 12 painful hours in labour room. when my doctor put him on my tummy, i said to myself, 'oooh, kali ni anak aku mendung sikit kaler dia.. tapi takpe lah.. asalkan dia selamat & cukup sifat, syukur alhamdulillah...'

then, zizi pergi azan kan haziq.. and the nurses sent me to my room. memang tak boleh nak tidur la kan after giving birth.. same as the first labour, after delivering the baby, penat gila pun, mata tak nak tido. i think bcoz of the excitement that my belly is finally freeee, and the baby's safely born.. excited gila nak first feed the baby, wanna let him taste the healthy and fresh colostrum. tunggu punya tunggu punya tunggu.. baby tak sampai2... dalam pada tak dapat tido tu, sedar2, dah terang. (oh, terlelap jugak aku rupanya... kononnya langsung tak boleh tido!!). then came a chief misi with a bunch of nursing students, chief nurse tu dok ajar2 diorg entah apa2 agaknya, then i asked her abt my baby... 'oh, didn't the doctor tell you?'

WHAAAATTTTTT????!!! of coz lah aku terkejut beruk kan.. dah lah baru lepas beranak, emotionally unstable, in pain & hurt after getting a lot of stitches! rupa2nya haziq kena oxygenized sbb leher dia terbelit tali pusat... no wonder he looks 'mendung'.. rupanya blood capilaries dia burst sebab tercekik.. kesiannya anak aku...

but the tiny red blood spots all over his face and body slowly faded & by 3 weeks after he was born, his skin colour became fairer and fairer. so that's about haziq when he was born..

i used to send both haziq & mukhriz to my parents' house. my parents ada 2 maids, indah & milah. indah's in charged of cooking, laundry and housekeeping. milah, takes care of my grandma & housekeeping jugak sikit2. the kids selalunya milah yang jaga bcoz indah selalunya bz buat laundry.. so, my daily routine masa tu is, pagi: send the kids to parents - then: go to work - petang: pick them and go home. that routine started since mukhriz, sampailah ke haziq..

until one day... in February 2007, hari tu mcm hari2 biasa. the kids mmg suka pergi 'mak's house', as they call it. that evening when i came back from work to pick the kids, milah kata the kids ikut my parents pergi kedai kejap. then, i asked zizi to go back to office bcoz i forgot to bring back work that i wanna finish at home. so we went back to office to pick the document.
on our way back to mak's house, masa tu at klebang kechil area, which is about 5 minutes away from mak's house, i got a fone call from mak's house. it was milah, crying and said, 'Kak win, balik cepat. haziq kena iron!!!' dalam hati aku masa tu, 'ya allah, biarlah kena kat tangan ke, kaki ke.. jangan la kena kat muka..'

sampai je mak's house, i jumped out of the car & looked for haziq, and....

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IRON KENA MUKA!!!! :'(

tuhan aje yang tau perasaan aku masa tu. sedih, risau, takut, marah! tak tentu arah aku dibuatnya. haziq's right cheek, the whole cheek!!! the sadness and anger feeling that i felt back then is still fresh in my heart that made me teary everytime i think abt that incident. sampai sekarang, bila aku teringat aje incident tu, aku rasa menyesal sgt2 patah balik to office to get that darn document!!! kenapa haziq? kenapa bukan aku yang kena?

the dark memories of February 2007....

zizi banyak nasihat aku untuk bersabar & redha dgn apa yang berlaku, itu semua takdir & ketentuan Allah yang kita mesti terima. but both of us still try to find ways to repair his skin. we went for consultations & most of the surgeons don't advice for operation yet. he's too small to cope with post-op care & procedures. takpe lah... kita sapu je lah scar gel yg doctor bagi. sekarang, 2 years after that incident, the redness on his cheeks fades bit by bit..

lagipun, no matter how big the scar on his cheek, he's still the cutest boy on earth to me and he'll always be mama's baby!!

and i always tell him that he's extraordinary & special bcoz no one else in his school has that kind of cheek.. and that makes him a special boy...

so both zizi and i have decided to just leave the cheek alone for now, and let's hope & see if it's gonna get better and better.. until he's ready and grow big enough to go for further procedures...

to reduce the redness and skin overforming,

everynight for about 1 year+, i had to paste 'cica care' on his cheek.

syukur alhamdulillah, the redness fades and the overformed skin subsides

sikit demi sikit..

kisah malang dak haziq ni bukan berakhir setakat iron hinggap ke muka...

25/01/2009, masa tu kat rumah, dalam the kids' room. entah macammana, haziq jatuh from their double decker bed. bukannya dari katil atas pun, but from the 1st step of the stairs. dia jatuh & badan dia terhempap his left hand!! masa tu, dia nangis teruk sangat & he fell asleep after dipujuk2 & minum susu. masa dia tidur, i noticed that left elbow dia bengkak & looks kinda different. bila dia bangun, dia nangis teruk sgt & kata tangan dia tak boleh gerak.. punya lah aku cuak masa tu.. bergegas lah ke putra specialist hospital accident & emergency department.
berdebar-debar tunggu x-ray result, mintak2 sgt tak de kes patah riuk..
then came the nurse and once again...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PATAH! shit happens, i have to admit but.. haziq? again??!! my poor little baby..

maka bersimen lah tangan si kemetot sorang ni for a month. (tapi aksi seram ganas dia masih berkekalan walaupun hanya dengan sebelah tangan yang berfungsi!!), biasa lah.. nama pun HAZIQ!!

haziq oh haziq.....

hong kong disneyland, march 2009...

yaay!! haziq is turning to 4 this saturday (11/7/09), and we're gonna make a family gathering to celebrate his bday. a small party for my little baby at mak's house. i ordered colourful cupcakes for him from Babycakes. i told him about the cupcakes for his bday and he's so excited about it! hopefully the cupcakes are gonna be exactly like what i described them to haziq!